What was it that first called you to join the OneSpirit training?
Ordination pulled me from childhood. With the path closed to women I wrestled for years. I heard about the seminary from Lydia Trettis – we were pouring an urn of boiling water into a pot to make a giant soup at Findhorn (now there’s an oracular moment!) – and my heart leapt. So much called: a path to full inner expression and leadership that included women and all other human diversity; an approach including devotion and spiritual counselling; the openness to paths with names and without; …. and ‘ministry’ (awkward word!) as life – with everyone essentially a ‘minister’ (awkward word too!).
In which year were you ordained? 2004
What is your minister’s vow, and your relationship to it?
My vow feels very private – and is not sure it wants to be seen! These few words pull me into an intimacy with what is real, every time. It’s a lifesaver, a re-orienter, a softening device! I really appreciate praying it at 11.58 now, knowing there are other OneSpirit ministers doing the same thing. It is “….to live from love, within life.”
What was the most important thing that changed in your life as a result of the training?
To be as explicit as I could about expressing myself as primarily dedicated to the Mystery, God, or whatever name we call the sanctity of Life.
How does your ministry or your life’s purpose manifest in the world now?
With my husband and son on our houseboat in London; as a tutor within OneSpirit; I’m a trustee of the Findhorn Foundation; a coach at IMD business school; supervisor, counsellor, consultant….as daughter, friend, sister; I guess in every moment that I remember Love, and act from that.
What main sources of inspiration or guidance do you draw on for your continuing spiritual journey?
People who dare to practice Love. Elmer, Lucien, my family, my parents. South Africa. David Spangler. The stars, trees, flowers, children. Subtle and elemental worlds. The sea. Extraordinary people – Mary Daly, Antjie Krog, Binnie Dansby, Suzette Clough, Sobonfu Some, Billy Kennedy come to mind. Swimming, praying, silence, listening, writing, teaching. Our son’s Steiner school and our soul family around it. Sanity-saving humour on whatsapp groups! The faith and brilliance of my OneSpirit colleagues. Oracles. Findhorn. Systems thinking. Both Marys. A Course In Miracles. Supervision. The goose sitting on her eggs in my flowers right now under the growing moon.
Where is your ‘edge’ currently — what most challenges you on your path?
Not taking it personally. Taking it responsibly and responsively. Self doubt. The slippery and fascinating double helix of leading and following, alone and together. Seeking and failing and seeking and failing to put love, meditation, health, humour, simplicity and intention first!
How do you envision your ministry developing in future?
The beautiful word lacuna says it all for me right now – integration, rest, ‘a gap’, sense-making, breathing, simplifying, stopping, relishing home. I stepped out of the leadership role within the Seminary/ Foundation at the end of 2017, following a privileged and intense decade in that space – 7 years as Seminary Leader and then 3 as Foundation Focaliser/ Head. Its a precious time to remain immersed within our amazing OneSpirit faculty, whilst listening to what will emerge when its ready. Its like a time of blank paper- and feeling guided to leave it like that – whilst treasuring what and who is here right now. I’m trusting in transition and grace and life’s Love.